For me it is more about being unconditional love.....as Wayne D would say,if you try....you end up trying......becoming it would be a stronger manifestation of it.Loving from the heart in an unconditional way is not easy.I was always a part of a give and take society.There was always a string or two attached to love...a reason for it,something to recieve from it....it might even have been thought of in bad taste to ....just give it away....sillyness.....So it took a while to convince myself to try it and see what it felt like......To me...Like I had grown wings,large beautiful wings,that could wrap around me and others,that were so soft and gentle,in fact they took my breath away and gave me an awareness of deepest gratitude,for even being in that hallowed,breathless space,feeling unconditional love.........Being in that space,is from Grace,and I am very fortunate to have a key in my heart,...........it is divine,it is unconditional,nothing is required.......it  IS................wrapped in the wings,safe,peaceful in mind,full of heart..unconditional................

looking at the past,makes me think about the future.Will the truth of the past be buried?....Can absolute greed,totally callouse behaviour be OK ? Will it be swept under the rug ? Put in a closet ?................Or will this kind of evil be allowes to flourish as the new way,lets get it all !!  I am thinking that the future relies heavily on ethical behaviour towards each other,especially to our Mother,I mean,we know these things,and it is time to wake up to real truth and leave material greed where it belongs......So I try to be in the present, and with my life force and presence shine a light,with the help of Grace,and Compassion,and LOVE toward another road,not as harsh and unforgiving of the less fortunate....and I pray for atonement in the highest places,may the truth be revealed........................less thinking,more being..........

As a teen,it was the Beatles,the Rolling Stones,The Who....these bands spoke the language,they told out loud the feelings that were pent up inside me.The band I played drums in learned these songs and we played them and had fun in this revolution of music,dressing the part and letting our hair grow to show our independence from the old ways................Then came Pink Floyd,and a new awareness,a new level of sound,a way of experiencing sound so richly layered and intense..my mind expanding with LSD,realising how limited I had been,how programed my reality was.There was a new age sweeping the world and I wanted to be a part of it...................10 years later, on stage with Pink Floyd,my dream realised,I believed that manifesting came from sharp,uninterrupted focus.....I began to play music to raise conciousness as a DJ in the live clubs of EU.I found many musicians who expressed their joy of enlightenment through their music and played it loud.......................................To this day,I love to dance......by chance in trance....and have underwater speakers in my pool. A soundbed,where a magic musical massage happens....and over the years have collected the music that captured that place of oneness with all............Music is a wonderful medium which makes us present and moves moods, it is an expression beyond mere words....Thank you Steven Roche,Al Gromer Khan, and hundreds of others who shaped my thoughts and brought me to this place.........aahhh viacom.(Eric Johnson)

St Francis of Assissi......if I could only meet one,....knowing me though,I would want to meet a few more..how wonderful would that be,to sit down and get a real insight without all the misinterpretations of other humans in the way...mmmm. Well back to Francis,he just intrigued me because he chose nature and animals,the human story was not his quest,I liked that,there is so much we do not know about the animal kingdom and in our ignorance we marginalise it....I believe we can communicate with animals on levels unspeakable.There is so much love available,we just don't think about it. Yeah....I would have liked to spend some time with Francis and learned his language,and shared heart-space,sat with the animals and just have a grand pow-wow about this world of ours......

I would like to come back in a position where I could be philanthropic.Where I could shape the way for a more compassionate world.Where hunger was not an issue,and the human race worked together to make life and ended the stupidity of war,racisim,greed......

What do I have the hardest time loving?.........War....without a doubt,after all the wars that have happened,after all the outcomes,after all is written,after all the "never agains" we still engage in this stupidity...I feel revulsion,It is time to stop. I cannot give this practise of violence any support and to find a reason to love it...is beyond me................As for the who,...it would be the those that in their need to gain power and profit stoop to generate the conditions of war,those that supply both sides and can watch the cash register ring as people die....They would lie to gain more in their greed and egocentric beliefs and have no regard for anyone else but themselves....I cannot find a way to love them,pity them yes.....feel compassion for their ignorance,but there is no love.........................

It does not come as a search....It is more like finding it..letting it flow from within me,it already exists. The infomation is endless and the possibilities..infinite....for me it is benevolent and blissful,tempered by gratitude.In that moment of connection..the truth is evident..an intuitive heartspace...knowing peace and loosing the ego....these moments I look for...............

I am not sure about what I am supposed to learn.I do know what I have learned,and taking those lessons into my daily life has its value................As a result of that,I can say this.......take intuitive risks,be true to heartfelt change.Even as you stuggle,keep hope,never sell out and the rewards are waiting...it might be a long wait....hang in there....Even now at 60 years old,I am waiting,but the journey has been incredible and I find myself in gratitude often.I love to share my knowledge,give waterjourneys and sweatlodges....sit in silence for extended periods...share love..be in the moment as much as I can....learning in this lifetime is on going for me..it never has stopped and possibly that is it,that I am here to learn period.....life is an individual school room for each and everyone of us...

I heard the music of the stars and danced with the universe.

Letting go...........being in the moment......love is .......it just keeps showing up in my life...........Now what to make of it ..all this information..?  I am looking out into the forest,past the stacked wood,at the river...a fog is rolling in.It is very still and eerie....yes,I get it,be still....be still.  So I have arrived ..letting go to be still,from that stillness I feel love.................<3

I have discovered that it is LOVE that keeps us alive...it is elusive,it is persuasive.It is trickster.......blissful,painful.....It has been my teacher,and my pleasure...,sometimes lost and unexpectedly found....a treasure. Love is a key to many doors Love is a magnate..attraction happens with love....I have learned that I love,LOVE..

My dearest world,there is this friend of mine named Alice who lives in Wonderland,a suburb on your surface....she came to visit and gave me two pills(she has a great supply of interesting ones)She said that these will open our hearts and our minds to the purest love available anywhere....So I am thinking,because I love you so much,and I know we have both been hurt lately..these two pills might just be what the doctor ordered.(take two pills and call me in the morning)...I really trust Alice,and she would not lie to me...and for us both to re-discover this beautiful pure LOVE between each other would be my Valentine wish...so my beloved world,be mine and join me on this journey into LOVE......

There is only the path that has been my life.In retrospect whether it was wrong or right is not easy to decide.All of what has happened has made me who I am.I only know good because of experiencing bad.Because of wrong I have come to realise right. My concience is wise from experience.I map out my future based on the past,and my desire to be better than I was.If I was to truely question choice...I have none,because my heart already knows......My life journey unfolds before me as a path...it is the only one,it is neither wrong or right...it  is my life  ..infinite ...

When it feels safe,when the time is right,when the energy is positive,when confidence is flowing,when spirit is radiating,when the heart is open.....when I burst forth as my beautiful self.....flourishing....

BELIEVE.....to do this wholeheartedly is my pick. Somewhere there usually comes a distraction.....a voice in my head,a situation that could be ambigiously analysed,just anything to distract me from from the total concentration.I want to be laser sharp in my dream.

Living the life I love. Making the choices I have made.Staying true to my heart,in the most difficult situations.Taking outrageous risks in creating my dreams.The pain and suffering that created quantum growth in my life. The LOVE I have experienced.The connection I have forged with nature.....The most important,though, is this love affair I have with water...aahh warm water is bliss..this is good.

There is this space,maybe between breaths,maybe between days,maybe............to put words to this place would interupt the space. All is already there,imediate cognisance without words.It is so fine there is naught to be said...............................

ME.......iside this flesh and bone body I have lived,worked and played.I have loved and eaten,experienced ........since my first breath...or a bit before that...and lately I have seen things that lead me to believe that I have carried myself in other bodies long before this one...I might even get to do it again.........live from the hot-tub,its another life .......:)

So many places..the forest is great,in the stillness I disapear. But if I was to pick a favourite it would have to be a good book..one that transports me out of my life and into the pages...i am gone,hiding in the prose creating my world of that moment.....

The CEO of Freddie Mac,Richard Syron takes a 14.5 million dollar bonus in 07,and CEO of Fanny Mae Daniel Mud takes a 14.2 million dollar bonus in 07..........so now in 09 we the tax payers have to bail these companies out  ?????These are 2 of hundreds of cases....???? where is sense? or is there    no sense......?

wishing is the operative word if you live here in the Ozarks....changing is an easy bet.......from 70 to 29 in a day no problem. Ice storms,electrical storms...so hot and sticky, howling winds,rains,.........................wishing could get tricky....maybe take it as it comes..It is more than interesting....I live my life by it...It seems to me like a relationship...full of suprises.........Some are breathtaking....................and then there are those where you just have to take a breath......it is almost more than you can take...weather can scare us,make us shake in our bodies.....humble us...or shoot us to the moon.....that warm idylic day,floating with love on the lazy river....wishing  weather  too or not too.............................what day is to-day ?...........

Must live my life with love.....it creates and intensifies...brings resonant energy.........................Fear is not...........shuts down love,creates suspicion....also brings in resonant energy..................LOVE is a MUST..ion...........(inside lol)