breath,love,experience,realise.love,peace.

Thank you.................The sun is sending the rays through the trees,a golden pink reflection on the snow,steam rises from the tub, my body is very warm,relaxed,connected to this moment. My body says to the world...you are so beautful in this moment,I enjoy your gift of the water,the wood to heat it,this soul in me that had the idea to create this space...My body/hand..,finds another hand..my body feels gratitude..thank you world for all you do for me..opening my heart to the sacred..to love,to the dance I dance with you daily...two bodies are better than one........warmth,peace...quiet....in the arms of Gaia...........

The perception of choice.The way I can manipulate my future somewhat by my actions in the moment. This ability to create..to think it and then bring it into manifestation..make it real is something I marvel at. This process is life unfolding,I have to open my eyes to see some things,and have to close them to see others.....I could say in this moment of writitng that it occurs to me there is nothing to hold onto..let it flow..in fact the more you let go...the more there is...and truth be known,sometimes we have to give up ...natures way of recieving you...there is a relief and great freedom in letting go..giving up these perceptions of our personal reality..but still we get to choose,most of the time,sometimes not...........After being forced to give up on life...a very scary place,finding amazing peace,and being given life back.....flow is great,that watery essence moving over,around and through life..always moving...choosing where to flow..or is it gravity...am I gravitating or choosing.....I used my mind and 2 fingers and a thumb,to type this because I was inspired,and now here it is........my choice is love this life and all its facets,it is a treasure once found....hard to give up...........

When I was young,living in Zimbabwe put me in the midst of Animals.At certain times different ones would take on the role of making a difference in my life,being a teacher,a wake-up call....give unconditional love..take my breath away....Elephants are vast ,Rhinos are scary,but  not quick,dont let that fool you with a hippo..it was all a learning curve that made up ones life..Living with them certain rules are paramount..to staying alive,we all knew those.The reptiles recieved the most respect.Domestic animals were very varied..dogs and cats..but then many wild breeds had been domesticated....Dogs had the biggest impact ,with their loyalty and willingness..and they always loved to play.....So now ...here at Waterjourneys I find myself connecting with my dog..a blue heeler/beagle....and the coyotes,otters,beavers...see the scat,clean branches in the creek.. howls and crys into the night....they all leave a story.The birds talk all day,follow you around,buzzards by the dozen on the thermal...geese migrating..an eagle looking. Squirrels,chipmunks....busy..rabbit hopping.....They all live here and share themselves with me and it makes my life full....it puts smiles on me,lightens my heart....makes a diifference...........

The moon and venus threw shadows on the ground.  Fresh water, heated very hot.....add ice until just right. Releasing tension in this tub....perfect. As our bones begin to heat, the awareness of intensity. The cold plunge awaits...just the thought makes me linger in the heat....OK,step out slow,into the cold ,I had imagined it less,but its very cold tonight,breezy,below freezing and I am standing naked,steaming and deciding......Down,    I sit,     stetchout and hang on. Stop everything,even breathing. My heart is pounding......burning oxygen....I'll need to breathe...I slowly exhale,my breath is already cold....pause...slow inhale,much colder air coming in....from breath awareness to body awareness,quickly shifting. Meditate on staying still...I know that from being still I can create a membrane of neutral water around me...a safety-zone.....I feel it coming     aahhh relief.Begining to feel better......suddenly I am totally relaxed....no body....floating on the silence,it is a beautiful clear night..I am freeing my body in water..........Time slips.          How long ? I am aware of very cold breaths,a numbness creeping into my legs and ribs...time to get out,slowly..................It becomes a tai-chi dance between  B and I..from hot to cold....until we are almost crawling,smiling...just laying on the deck in this freezing weather feeling so good in the fleeting moments of bliss.        Hot water....a gift.  Ice cold water....a treasure.      This cold clear night......perfect

Hot water,steamy air......open.  Moonvision lights the way,barefooted on the moss,robes against the chill. Up the stairs,lighthearted,thru the woods...Sitting on the bench listening,breezes talking...feeling close,safe...loved. On the path...in the light...of a pale moon,bright stars winking...seeing us .Out of the woods and on the grass,...a chance to dance to the silence..back to the hot,into the steam...close my eyes to see the dream.

LOVE...such a beautiful  motivator.....

Dear lungs,thank you for oxygenating my blood without me having to think too much about it....Heartfelt love to you,also without too much interference from me.

It is a double edged sword.It has hurt my heart and warned me of danger.....I never know quite how to greet this stanger. I see it raise its head in relationship,and love fades and the dance of separation begins,it squeezes even the biggest heart to the size of a dried up pea and sends us running back to the shelter of alone........Other times I am alerted to oncoming danger,and thanks to fear...I managed to get out of the way.....fear has facets,some good and some bad...deciding when to duck is not easy...and avoiding a hurt heart is just the same.

That once I was lucky enough to experience a time of bliss in a pool,in a forest by a river...with a beautiful friend,and my faithful dog....a time of unconditional love that flowed through my heart,and made me happy,creative...hopeful. The forest was magic,and played along,while the birds sang our song.......Then in the setting sun,light diminished,dark set in.....we lost the way,went astray..ego play....there was a price to pay........I would have to say,don't let true love slip away.....

full moon night....feeling love alright.....oh baby not tonight...coyote howling in my heart, I remember when we had to part, the phone it rang,you were gone...I'm still full of feeling.....you left so fast I was reeling.....So now what is the cause..for you to pause..and say..not tonight ? coyote trickster in my heart says it just aint right.......So amid the howls I run,between the trees..my aching love to ease...that crazy moon is shining bright....lighting up this moody night. Once home..I hope that all will change for love is right...........

actually living in the future???or live in the future..kind of...either way it sets one up to miss what is presently happening right in front of them....moments of planning a future...yes,but living there..? how does one learn from the future?..i think we need some past....but a whole lot of present is good...

I think the world is trying to save us.......from ourselves. By being in the natural world,without TV or Radio...I think the world is great, its US that need saving. Just take a look at human behaviour and see if we are integrated with the already existing world....how would we save the world,with our already inflated egos ?  OOh look at us save the world,yeah baby.....based on our credentials of what saving we have already achieved....I have to laugh...lets begin with ourselves..and see what happens..

The garden,freshly tilled,smelled of dirt.My bucket of sprouting fingerlings and reds was next to me,the dog a few feet off.....I had a few hours in the rosy twighlight with dark grey clouds,I had to get it done,St Paddys was yesterday,I was already late............Fifty pratties in the dirt,a blessing with each one,I thought I smelled rain. Ha,what a thought,to have a rain after planting,that would be Irish luck......I put away the tools and climbed the stairs to the top of the hill and sat with the dog watching the robins egg blue and pink..turn lilac..red....and darken..clouds moving...and I thought I smelled rain again.......In the failling light I walked the path with memory more than sight....and crossed the lawns and felt the surge of spring...my heart lifted.A tear came to my eye as the joy of birth came to me and wrapped me in its warmth....Spring.................That night I awoke to the sound of rain,and fell asleep with a smile.

I was trying to remember to be in gratitude for my freedom,to remember to be thankful during the good times...not to take this space I am living in for granted...It seems that spring brings out a deep spiritual love for nature in me here..when all the buds are bursting out....

Patience......all will be just as it should.  Be diligent,do the nessesary.....LOVE is key,find a way to love everything that crosses your path,there is a gift in everything. Stay focussed on your dream,believe............check in with me often.....

Fortunate.............I am living in a remote area with clean air,sweet water,and my own health spa...I have love, I give love...I am love. I dissolve into my space and become one with it on a regular basis.Not to say it is always perfect,lessons are all around and growth comes as pleasure and as pain...but growth is like the spring,inevitable.I love the river,the forest,the wild life I share this with..I love  B  who shares this with me and creates in the garden and shares joy in her heart that comes from being here. I am grateful for the ability to be in the moment,for the freedom to make fire,to have sacred space, and to live the life I love..it is a monumental gift to awaken to the realisation that I am one with all here,in this garden...naked and guiltless,

Connecting with nature ...as I walk the trails and notice the little changes,as the sun comes up or goes down......the clouds blowing across the sky.....Birds singing...my dogs tail wagging.....laying in the hot tub looking at the brilliant night sky.....holding space for a client in the warm pool....cooking a meal....writing about love...being trusting..smiling...flowing...being waterheart

As within ...so without...infinite both ways..and interesting either way...

 To be thankful that I live in it. That to be one with her is an honor.This is the ultimate garden and all I will ever need is already here. She loves to play with me. Has many mysteries to share. I am grateful for the ability to be a part of the world,here in the woods,by the river..my hands in the dirt..feet in the water...head in the clouds..

which people ?  I think it is so variable that its unfathomable..how do we know what people want ? ask them ? Take a survey....hey Lady,what do you want ?  how many answers am I likely to get from 50 different women...I am betting that love might be on the list. I know that for me when love is in the air I feel fine. There are also the material girls,golden girls,diamond girls...fast car men,money men,power men..like I said unfathomable....a deep ocean of wants...a small pond of answers..somewhere I heard that people with the least are the happiest..(Dave ?) but that rang a chord in me..being free of want might be a want....I think the chord has become a song...oh I want to be free of wanting....having nothing is everything to me....i'm free to be....me...at last I see.....
Ha...its only my song...one in ?  unfathomable...care to sing with me ?

I am looking out the window,seeing a tinge of green,a cloudy sky with bright patches of blue.The river sparkles as the light breeze ruffles the surface,the bamboo waves gently.........I sip on a cup of tea,thinking.....inside me there is some swirling of emotion that makes me uneasy..situations,conversations and past events parade before me and I try to make sense of it and organise it so I can file it away in my virgo mind and rest easy.......but its nagging at me. The monkey on my shoulder keeps pointing out this and that...spinning my tranquility................I look out at the brightening sky trying to find a way to escape...into the beauty of nature,into the works of God...but the mind is powerful..and I slip into frustration,things I thought were solid suddenly feel elusive...I know its a dance and sometimes close sometimes distant...breathe....sip the tea....wait.....let my heart tell me something,what do I feel ?  Again the parade,the words like the band playing,my critical mind analysing..I feel a shift,my heart is joining in the parade beating love into the mix and somehow drowning out the retoric...let go....let go...Its interesting how we feel the need to fix things in other peoples lives,I know its compassionate...loving...etc,but I also know that it can become obsessive....so to let go and focus on my dream..energy directed in a more personal way,my heart says,what does it matter what is happening with anyone else..really,the real issue is me,and what am I experiencing as a result of my thought process.   Thoughts become manifest at some point so keep it simple............The light is brighter now,the river still,the bamboo still waves gently ...I wave back...yes I know...I tend to complicate things with constant cogitation and a need to understand the process....but letting go is freeing,and trusting is freeing and in this freedom I experience a lightness of being...which puts a smile on my face...............I take another sip on my tea......

After night comes the day..after winter comes the spring, that love transforms fear.I trust my heart.I trust the signs in nature,blue skies,dark clouds,wind....warm sun. I trust my spirit ...I trust in love to reveal the truth,I trust that my life is happening as it should,my lessons and joys and blissful moments,along with pain and frustration expanding the envelope of experience toward infinity...a merger with the universe..a marraige with benevolence...a natural progression..I trust my life as a spiritual awakening in this world....most ?.......the love in my heart............

That any of the Billions of stimulous dollars has trickled into my pocket !

The TV and my addiction to watching it,the hours it stole from my life as I watched that screen.....and absorbed....toxic mush......programming...reality TV ?.....